HOLY FUCK why am I crying like nonstop jesus

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I am so, so exhausted though.

Today was a good day. Saw all my favorite work peeps today, and got to hang out one on one with two of them I’m out to. Which was very nice.

Still have been on the verge of tears all day and idk why :cri I guess just E.

It is frustrating to me how awkward and unsure I feel about how to talk with people about it, what to talk about, I don’t know if that makes sense.

Its funny to me how many of the people I like don’t like each other. The two people I got to spend time with today and was super excited about don’t like each other. (idk if this comes across the right way) I kinda wonder if I get along with kinda unlikeable people, or at least like people that others struggle to get along with.

Please be safe when fucking around with lasers

IPL can’t do face or genitals, so that’s a big limitation you might want to consider.

:waow-based: honestly don’t know if I’ve heard that before

Oh really? I guess school is just expensive idk. That’s good to know if I was going to do school here then. May as well be in Canada and experience that. Doing something that’s only 2 years feels a lot more achievable to me. And yea I guess I could probably get loans to go internationally. I hadn’t thought about that being possible I guess.

meet some people, be yourself

god definitely crying tonight… Thank you again terminal.

Sorry for the late reply. Today was super busy. Thank you for all the information. I definitely intend on getting a passport while I can still boymode and haven’t changed any docs.

SAIT and NAIT in Alberta, BCIT

Maybe I’m looking at the wrong thing, I don’t know, but it looks really expensive. I guess I don’t know what I expected. My little heart just wants a job that doesn’t suck the soul out of my body and lets me rent my own place. Maybe some parts of healthcare could do that.

That’s really nice to know I could take a test and get my American license. And that lab tech is critical enough I could probably get a work permit in Canada. The way things are going I’d rather stay there if I was at all able to.

I can easily see how a Muslim person who isn’t religious would still call themselves Muslim even if they practice the same amount of religion as a lapsed Christian who no longer identifies that way.

A lot of Christians will also do this, plenty don’t attend church, read the bible, don’t really think about god existing or not and still label themselves as such. They are functionally agnostics/non religious imo

I don’t believe you is not a belief system

>I don’t have any breast growth
>wow my chest sure is bouncing a lot going up/down stairs

Ooh, thank you for the specific recommendations. I would really appreciate a DM here or on matrix to talk about that.

So exhausted today. Didn’t sleep enough and then ran all over the place.

What do I need to go up there and study for it? Guessing a visa and money, do you know what that process is like?

I don’t really know what I can do to mitigate it. I’ve thought of getting some kind of med tech cert or something. I don’t know what my options really are- I’d probably want it in a year. But I’m so depressed I don’t know if I can actually complete it. I’ve failed plenty of classes because of that. I have no idea how to mitigate the difficulty of finding a new job.

They are definitely not going to be an option to live with I don’t think. I am waiting as long as possible. But I’m already on E. I guess it all depends on when I get tits. Yes, and the cost of moving/etc. I have no other reason to be here. I have savings I can dip into (although I do want to hold as much as possible for surgery), but I really don’t want to move out somewhere, spend all my savings, and have to move back in with them or be homeless or whatever.

Because if that’s it, it will probably be time for you to leave, whether you’re ready or not.

But how does that work if I’m not ready :doomjak: like literally. How?

tysm for talking with me. I appreciate it so much. I have felt very alone

I appreciate all replies to my comments more then I could ever say. silence doesnt help. I understand though.

I’ll try. It seems unlikely to me that he won’t get the offer though.

I wish I could only take one day :kitty-cri: but I know what you mean… idk how I’m going to leave though. I have no degree. Experience isn’t great and kinda niche. My job pays me less then the min wage in the state I want to move to. Part time. Even with having a place to live and all my expenses taken care of idk how I’m going to find a job in my new state. I don’t know how I can just “move” and not have a job or place to even be. I realistically have to move out when I come out to my family. So how much time do I even have where I can save. I know I deserve a place that’s safe and accepting but I dont know how I can do that.

This was genuinely like 90% of all my hope, if anyone has anything to say whenever you see this I’d super appreciate it

Yup, heard stories of people not able to get a passport with either marker on it. We’re fucked

Better socially. Healthcare. Correct ID. Fucking everything.