I need some help

Of course Amerikkka killed another innocent person point blank today, on video with no ambiguity. Of course the chuds are celebrating and the libs are doing nothing and I’m sitting here at work on 10 total hours of sleep over the last two days watching everyone around me not care at all. Or maybe they all just hide it better?

IDK man it feels like my whole life is just leading up to me doing something horrible to some people who deserve it and then ending myself. And no one cares. And I know what will happen as the chuds will call me a fat ass and libs will say “Epstein” and there will just be new ghouls to replace the old ones.

How do I numb myself to stop caring so damn much? I swear I can’t do this anymore